6/14/2009

I SUDDENLY ASKED MYSELF 'WHY DID I NOT KISS HER FACE?'

B. McGILLICUDDY

I've been single for a few months now, and have suddenly become very curious why I haven't felt a paradigm-shifting twinge causing me to spiral out of control with obsession for some girl recently. I have been around girls. Pretty girls even. Gorgeous girls by my standards, and yet I haven't broken down and sappily told any of them 'I have wanted to tell you for a long time now, maybe even a week, that I think that I am in love with you', which was at one point in my life a weekly occurrence.

Why haven't I done this recently? Did I 'do some growing up'? Has all of my libido converted to an addiction to something that isn't 'love'? I don't think so, but what I think is surprising is that I am pretty sure that I am in love with a girl who is both far away from me, and so surprisingly fleeting in her romanticism, that I'm sure I couldn't properly pin her down if I tried, and so I feel 'defeated' or something.

It's weird for me.

B. McGILLICUDDY

1 comment:

  1. Any girl that's good enough for you to love shouldn't be able to be 'pinned' to anything. You are a free spirit; you need a free spirit. You need someone to fly with, not someone to lay with.

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