B. McGILLICUDDY
See, the shitty thing about being 'out of love' with people is that the impression is made somewhere that there is supposed to be a 'new beginning' or 'something good' on the other side of it. But god fucking damn, it's just mutherfocking BOOORING.
Artists especially get a lot of flack for breaking things up/apart/off, because 'that's where the inspiration comes from', the 'heartbreak', right!?!?! Bitch, please. Please please please please please, spare me. Do you know when I make what I want to make, and I make it GOOOOOOD? And I make it BEEEAAAUTIFUL? It's when I'm sitting on the couch, next to you, typing nonsense about some indescribable awesome that I am feeling at that moment.
When do I make the shit that I hate and can't stand to look at ever again? NAO. Right FUCKING now. This goddamned thing is a train wreck and I'm OBVIOUSLY channeling a 43-year-old obese Black female hair-stylist with a 6th grade education just to tap into these emotions, so FUCK THIS.
But no. Too late. It's over. No fucking. I don't get any break-up sex. Which I guess is fine with me since it 'sucked so much'. I don't even WANT break-up sex. Totes lied when I said yours was my 'fave vagina fo' realz' and shit. Say that to every damn bitch. And as far as we're concerned, you ain't nuthin' but a li'l white bitch EHNYEWAY!
Figured I wrote you 30 love letters, least I could do was write one piece of hate mail for the grand finale.
I am going to miss you forever, bitch/sugardoll/female-me.
B. McGILLICUDDY
damn.
ReplyDeletei was ganna say this on "Ode born in secrets", but you are fuckin talented man
ReplyDeleteVery different indeed...
ReplyDeleteI often think ..what's the point on getting all whinny and needy at a time of heartbreak? I can take life and all of it's horribleness. BAH We're young.. we'll meet someone new and the past will suddenly blow over. Who knows when that'll happen?
whoooo knows...