I AM A MAN pt.2/5

B. McGILLICUDDY

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Maybe the real insight here is that being a man takes a certain level of motivation outside of the basic functions of life. Sure, sleep is awesome, and so's food, and sex, and laughing uncontrollably about ironic/stupid/gross shit. A good time is definitely good motivation, but unless you're more nervous system than brain (which we must not discount, for some men truly are) dudes need something to BE HERE for, and survival, or a good time, doesn't always fucking cut it. We need something to keep us from acting on impulse, because we'll use this excessive strength of ours to rip our own hearts out, just out of curiosity, wondering, "how fucking cool would that be!? How insane would that feel!?". In fact, writing that sentence has totally backfired, what WOULD it feel like if I ripped my own heart out!? SHIT, HOW AWESOME WOULD THAT BE!?

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I AM A MAN pt.1/5

B. McGILLICUDDY

PART 1 of 5

I am a man. I don't have a clue what that "means". I mean, I know it implies that I've got "the power", "the social influence", "the advantage", but tell me, why the fuck should I care about those things? So what if I'm supposedly "stronger"? If I have a better chance of becoming "what I want to be in life"? Though, I gotta admit I'm pretty stoked on the fact that it implies I don't have to religiously keep track of a monthly reminder blaring "PRIMARY OBJECTIVE IN LIFE: MAKE MORE OF ME!" via bloody axewound/angry babycave. Seeing its chemical effects is more than enough trauma for me.

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